Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I imagined that mock test a 'could have been mock'
My thoughts proved to be prophetic.Some employee called me and imploringly asked me to sit at one of the desks of reception.I had to give the exam while sitting at the reception.It was another surprise for me.I reluctantly ensconced myself.I became reticent for some time.I shook my head,left and right,with melancholy and scowled.Then I got to know that that was my friend's desk.I thought that I was lucky.But bad luck always come in bulk.As I started the exam,my friend started talking to me.But he stopped after few minutes and that few minutes were enough to divert my attention and loose my concentration.He went from there and I continued.Some girl came to me and started inquiring about some course.I told her that I was a student.She said sorry and I replied 'Its ok'.What else could I say.She went and I continued.And then some another girl came and the same thing happned and I again continued.After sometime my friend came with pepsi and packet of chips in his hand but this time he was not alone.There was some employee with him.They seated in front of me.They continued their eating process.My friend started praising me and telling my qualities to that employee 'he is in this prestigious institute,he plays cricket very well and about some general things'.At that time I remembered one line 'dignity is not congenital,it is acquired'.I felt proud of myself. I did not feel like stopping him.Obviously how could I.After all he was praising me.In the mean time they continued their eating process.They went and I resumed.Then 2 girls came to me and same thing happened.
I was busy in solving questions.I had to spend much time poring over questins.Then I heard '1 shahi paneer,1 naan,3 tandoori roti'.I was like what was that.There was a common phone placed on the desk and someone was ordering his lunch.I recommenced and started solving questions.Then some employee came to me and asked me to excuse her as she had to take some papers kept at the lower shelf in the desk.I stood and allowed her to do so.I continued again.Then some employee came and started talking on phone and he continued to do so for 15 mins.He was talking to his girlfriend.When you have free phone ,why won't you use it and thats for noble cause.In the mean time,some girls were coming and going ,for the same reason.Why were only girls coming to the institute.Then ,for a change,some uncle came to inquire and the same thing happened.
As I moved to reading comprehensions,computer got hanged and had to restart it.And this happned thrice.Whenever I used to scroll for viewing the complete paragraph,computer got hanged.As a result,I could not do RC section.Then time passed without any inquiry.
After sometime,there was a pervasive feeling of organised chaos,frenetic movements.I got to know that people finished their exam.There was general exodus towards the door.My coaching friend was also there. He came to me and started chating with me and went.Till then I had completed 2 sections or better to say time got completed for two sections.Computer hanged again and I restarted it.So before starting of test again,I opened my orkut account and within fractions of seconds millions of files opened.I did not know what was happening.It seemed like one process was waiting for some resources which was occupied by some other process and that process was waiting for some resource which was occupied by other and soon..so there was deadlock and computer hanged again.When computer started again,that time I opened gmail account and chatted online for few minutes.Then I resumed again.People were coming and going.
I completed my exam or 'again' better to say time got completed.It was a amazing experience though my paper screwed.
That was a 'once in a life experience' and I imagined that mock test a 'could have been mock'
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Craziest things!!!
1. What a day that was!! My 6th sem exams were going on and they were so bugging that I was reluctant to give.Four papers were gone and so was my patience.Saturation level had been reached. And last paper was of Microwave and satellite communication which made me more exasperated.It was that annoying that I would prefer to watch the movie 'Tashan' rather than giving that exam but I was not bestowed with such options.So I thought to give the exam in a unique style so that I would enjoy in the exam.Fifteen minutes before the starting of exam ,I went to the canteen and bought a pepsi bottle and 'Bingo' chips.Then I went to classroom and hid the chips under the desk.So when paper was about to start ,I ensconced myself on the seat with pepsi waiting for me by my side and first time I was excited before the commencement of the exam.And the exam started and everyone was in some kind of tension but I had my different plans.With the first sip I was invigorated.And then I started doing my paper.After every question,I used to have 1 sip and some chips.It was so amazing that my friend started chortling in the class.Then invigilator went outside the class for a minute.I gave the bottle to my friend to relish.I was eating,drinking,writing.Atleast I was enjoying while giving exam.What a experience that was.
2.During my 4th sem,once we had no class after 2.30.So after that I and my friend were getting bored.Luckily,my friend had laptop at that time.So we thought to watch movie and that too in classroom.In the starting she was reluctant to watch as it was so weird to watch a movie in the classroom.But later on,I convinced her.After all it would be a different experience.Luckily, I had chips in my bag.So we started the movie 'Kismat Konnection'.After one hour,battery of laptop died and so was our enjoyment. But that was awesome experience.
3.During Multimedia class in 6th sem,my friend was having a headache.I had heard chocolate could provide instant relief,if not actually but psychologically.Lecture was going on.I stood up and went to teacher and told her that I had to go.Without waiting for her answer,I moved out of the class and came back with a chocolate in my pocket and sat on my seat.My problem was how would I give her as she was sitting in the last row and I was in 2nd one.I asked some guys for the stapler but no one had.They were like 'why the hell you need the stapler in between the class'.Then I got some idea.I take out my notebook.For a change I was using notebook in the class but not for making notes.I pasted 2 consecutive pages on the 3 sides and left the 4th side. I carefully took out the chocolate from my pocket so that no one saw it and slid the same in the bag like structure which I made using pages and then I pasted the 4th side also.Then chocolate was safe in between the page.I closed the notebook and passed it .When it was on the way,someone opened the notebook but he could not see the chocolate.Finally it reached her and she had the chocolate.I guess it helped her.But MAZA AAYA
AND the list goes on.....
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
KaSaNa!!
First person who affected me is S(she was my neighbour). OR it would be better to give the name S1 because there are so many S to come. S1 was responsible for spreading some rumour about me.And the rumour was that there was something fishy about me and K1.K1 was my neighbour too.This happened for quite a long time but I was quiet and did not say anythng.S1 used to tease me.And one day S1 said some crap in front of all and everyone got to know about this rumour.Then I cleared everything and from then no one can said anything related to this.After a year,S1 again did something out of the blue.A rumour was pervaded among my friends.And it was again of the same kind but this time girl was N1.And the funniest part was that N1 was older sister of K1( also N1 was 1 year older to me).What the hell S1 wanted.Was she demented? Or matter was something else.Generally girls tease you with the name of other girls when they like u.In fact,I used to spend more time with S1(playing games like chess,buisness and all with her.Let me tell you that this all happened when I was in 7th standard) and still she used to say that something going on between me and N1. And this time ,S1 was so confident about it but I always used to deny.Truely telling,nothing was going on.After some time I left that place because of some reason(obviously not that reason).I don't know N1 had ever come to know about all this.but who cares? K1,S1,N1 was out of my life.
Actually that was not all.Something interesting was also going on in my class(7th tandard) concurrently . N2 used to link me with K2.She often used to tease me.But I was like "what the hell are you talking" and from inside I felt like 20% blood has been increased in my body.K2 and N2 were cute,sweet,charming and my friends.I was enjoying that moment.I used to like both(not that way).That rumour continued for 1 year and after that evrything calmed down. Rumours kept on oscillating between K2 and N2.(Ya with N2 also).Several years passed.I changed my school after 10th. When I was in first year of my college ,I came to know about two big things or better to say unfortunate things.Some friend told me that k2 used to like me and that happened for 3 years.And when I asked K2 about this ,she replied in affirmation and told me" I thought you like N2". After some months .I met N2 and she gave me another shock.Ya,she used to like me too and that too for 5 years. I was the dream guy for N2.These were the words of her's. Now both N2 and K2 are committed. Should I call myself luckiest one or the most unlucky? but who cares?
Between: In 10th standard,my school friend saw me playing chess with my neighbour in my balcony.(let me remind you ,I changed my place after 7th).So this girl is different.She is S2,1 year older than me. And 1 more rumour in my class.but this did not bother me much. It lasted for comparitively small time.S2 and S1 has name.
Then I joined another school after 10th class. I hoped that time I would not have to face such rumours as I was a newcomer. Few months passed without any such thing.Then one day my friend saw me studying with S3 and then what else could happen-another rumour.And this happened till the end of 12th class.And even some friends ask me about her till now.And then in 12th standard I got one new friend A1.She is very sweet,caring,intelligent,emotional.We are very good friends till date(touchwood). We just used to talk on phone.and just with phone talks,I learned the art of caring.In those days I often felt jealous of people when I saw them talking on phone in buses,while walking,while running,while playing,while studying,while shopping,while eating....they were always be seen on talking on phone.I just felt like "I wanna talk like them". And A1 bestowed me the pleasure of talking like them.Till date ,I had the longest chat on phone with her(more than 2 hours).I talked to her when I was in bus,while walking,while running,while playing,while studying,while shopping,while eating.I was feeling confident then.And I had the longest walk wth her(some Kms).But let me make it very clear we are just friends and I am happy for this.
During 12th standard only,when I was in some coaching institute,some girl N3 joined our class.Then she became the first and only girl_member of our class.Fortunately,we became friends.She just used to talk to me in the class.May be she liked me as a good human being(this is not narcism,it can be true) or she did not like anyone else or it was serendipity.But whatever that was I was enjoying.I still remember her phone number(I just called her once in my lifetime).After few months of her joining,she left the institute and she was out of my life.But who cares?
During my first of year of college(and infact just 2-3 days after starting of college), one morerumour pervaded. Once I was sitting at the back and this A2 was siting near to me.She was eating chips and she offered me as I was sitting near to her and she did not offer to anyone else.We just knew each other.And some classmate saw this and what could be the outcome of this.And then my some friend was after her and A2 started thinking that I was helping him to approach her.She started hating me after this.I did not know what kind of accrimony she was having and soon that rumour converted into I_am_after_her rumour.In those days , clearing_misunderstandings had become an ugly leitmotif in the canvas of my life.I soliloquised in an undertone of peevish displeasure 'what the hell was happnening'.But I guess I tried my best to make everything clear and I got the success to certain extent.I still dont know whether everything was clear to her or not.Things became so complex that it was no one's mistake.(once someone told her I am after her which aggravated the situation.I was stupefied when I heard this but I cleared it later on.It was just a semantic gap).Once we all were dancing at some jam session but there was some kind of cold war still going on between me and her.Iagain cleared everything at that place only and things got alright and I asked her "can we dance?".. I just meant that now we can dance, not dance_with_her(earlier we were dancing together but not looking towards each other.So I just meant now we can dance with no grudge). But I guess that thing was misunderstood.It was not her mistake and not even mine but it happened.I am still sceptical whether everything got alright from her side.But such things had its reverberations in following weeks.
'When a person really desires something all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream'.And I met S4.And I felt like I emerged from somnolent state.She was sweet, cute,caring and very pretty.I was enjoying every bit of the moment which I was spending with her.she became my bestest friend.We had same predilections.She handed out tenderness. Friendship is successful only when there is proper reciprocation and same was happening in our case.I am very happy to have her as my friend.She gave me confidence and became one of the protagonists of my life.
In the mean time K3 became my friend.She is sweet and very study-centric,well-focussed on her goal.Sometimes she forgets everything when it comes to studies but thats because of tension.She takes tension like hell.But she had become my very good friend.'Kitna kar liya' became the regular message in exams time and that too 3-4 messages per day.Because of her ,I became some 'saint'.Whenever she was in tension I used to console her or better to say preach her and sometimes duration of preachings had become more than a hour non-stop.It would be no exaggeration in saying that I would have earned more than 'aasaram bapu'if I used such preaching for commercial purpose.but I was enjoying.She supported me whenever I was in distress.Because of her,my patience power invigorated.
bw:there were rumours with S4 and K3 also.
Now S5 became my friend.She is sweet,very intelligent,'channt'.But my friendship was temporary with her.She came and ruined my friendship with S4 but its was not her mistake.Its just God wanted that and she became the medium.I and S5 were not friends anymore because of some reasons.There was always some cold war going on but now situations are improving.
After that, S6 became my good friend.She is intelligent,caring,helping and very good human being and you can call her a girl_next_door.I revere her the most among all my friends.But We dont talk much and still we are good friends.Incidentally,S6 and S3 are same persons.
In the mean time,K2 and N2 came back in my life again.And K2 came back with strongerinfluence.Because of her,I became a better human being,learned the art of true care and she changed my life.Now we are best friends.
Few months back,S7 became my very good friend.She is sweet,decent,caring.I like her dressing sense a lot.She is very emotional too.And recently ,I came to know about other phase of her life(which I guess hardly anyone knows about her).Should I feel privelege or I deseve that?
Among all my friends,S1,S2,N1,K1 are completly out of life and others are my very good friends and they influenced me a lot.
"Everything happens once can never happen again.But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time."
THANX to all of them!!!
PS:- I am single.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Do You Know What Love Is?
It’s the most powerful human expression that unites hearts like no other. Love is a wonderful, all–encompassing feeling. But is it inspiration or infatuation?
If you’re neglecting the things you should be doing, forgetting your purpose in life because you have a crush, then I would be concerned that you’re on the wrong path. A healthy relationship is one in which two people encourage each other to reach their respective goals while sharing each other’s hopes and dreams. A relationship should be a source of inspiration, invigoration and hope.
Dante Alighieri, one of the greatest Western medieval poets, had a young woman named Beatrice as his source of inspiration. He had loved her from afar since childhood. One day, after a long time apart, the eighteen-year-old Dante ran into her again on the street. He later composed a poem about his joy at that encounter, titled, ‘Revitalisation.’ In his struggle to convey his feelings for Beatrice, he created a new poetic form. She had unlocked Dante’s artistic potential.
She would remain however an unrequited love, for she married another man and died very young. But Dante never stopped loving her. Ultimately, that love enabled him to deepen the capacity of his heart and create something truly noble. In his masterpiece, The Divine Comedy, Dante depicts Beatrice as a benevolent being who guides him to heaven.
I think many things can be learned from this great poet who stayed true to his feelings, whether or not they were reciprocated. I truly believe that love must be a guiding inspiration for our lives—the driving force for us to live courageously.
If you use love as an escape, the euphoria is unlikely to last long. If anything, you may only find yourself with even more problems, pain and sadness. However much we may try, we can never run away from ourselves. If we remain weak, suffering will follow us wherever we go. We will never find happiness if we don’t change ourselves from within. Also, to treat a relationship simply as an escape, is actually disrespectful to both your partner and yourself.
Happiness is not something that someone else, like a girlfriend or boyfriend, can give us. We have to achieve it for ourselves. And the only way to do so is by developing our character and capacity as human beings, by fully realising our own potential. If we sacrifice our growth for love, we absolutely will not find happiness. The point is not to be in a hurry. Being alone is not something to be afraid of, because when the time is right you’ll find the right person to love.
If you genuinely love someone, then through your relationship, you can develop into a person whose love extends to all humanity. That sort of relationship strengthens and enriches your inner realm. Ultimately, the relationships you form reflect your own state of life. Only to the extent that you polish yourself now can you hope to develop wonderful bonds of the heart in the future.